life, work, and doing shit
Posted by Allison Mack | Filed under Blog
“Life is to be lived. If you have to support yourself, you had bloody well better find some way that is going to be interesting. And you don’t do that by sitting around.”
– Katharine Hepburn
Written by one of my most favorite actresses and about some of my most favorite topics: life, work, and doing shit.
As I enter the new year I have been spending lots of time thinking about where I am and where I am going. Who I am and what I want my life to be filled with.
Never before have I ever stopped this long, been this quiet, and thought about myself this clearly.
I took some time off of everything over the holidays and really started to look at all the things I spend my time on. I suddenly realized that I am a big fat liar.
So many of the things in my life I claim to want or have are only because of the way this looks. Like I am always simply playing a part.
How silly, what a silly waste of time.
What would happen if I disregarded the “character” I am attempting to portray and actually lived for me.
This was a huge “aha!” moment I had in Ecuador.
Traveling with my girlfriends I started thinking about why I do anything.
Why keep a clean house if it is not for the company that comes over?
Why wear make up if it is not to have someone think of me as beautiful?
Why write a blog if it is not for someone else to read it?
Why play a part if it is not for the applause?
As I started to ask and answer these questions for myself, I started to see why I do these things, really.
What type of experience I am seeking for me.
Yes, we are an interdependent species. We are creates of effects and we cannot disregard our responsibility in this world.
But that being said, we must take charge of our own experience and know and understand our own journey for us.
Know and understand your own journey for you.
Know and understand my own journey for me.
That way, when I am in the experience I am in it for me.
Living it with no fear or attachment to the outcome, only the experience.
This will be the practice of 2009.
A practice free of obligation and filled with honesty.
A year of truth that will be the start to a lifetime of depth!
xoxo
allison
Tags: being, doing, honesty, katherine hepburn, life, living, obligation, truth, work
73 Responses to “life, work, and doing shit”
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Lydia Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 9:46 amI couldn’t agree more and I wish you the best on your new journey.
I have promised myself to live ‘my’ best life as well and it is an empowering feeling.
I want to become the best person I can be, physically, spiritually, in every sense. Therefore, I vowed to make every day count and to make getting healthy and fit a priority.Thank you for sharing.
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jennygirl Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 10:13 amBut it IS okay to do stuff for applause, when we get such enjoyment from it as well!!! Some stuff that feels good for you, is enjoyed by others as well, so please keep giving us that gift!
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darwin Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 10:37 amThe other night…I was befuddled by a seemingly simple series of tasks…
All designed to determine what I needed from the grocery store (not much really) and then go to the grocery store. (I decided to walk).
So them that involved checking the weather and determining the appropriate clothing…or amount thereof.
But like I said…this all was taking WAY more time than I thought it should….but finally…I was on my way.
Walking down a busy street…one of those wide ones with the median in the middle…I was lost in thought…when I barely became aware of a person in a wheel chair on the other side of the street.
Then a small voice called…
“Sir?”
I immediately danced through the traffic to make my way to this person…as her voice would not sustain an “across the street” conversation.
She was stuck in the snow.
She had been trying to make her way to a service station/coveniance store to pick up some things she needed…and had come from a extended care-home not far.
She asked if I would help her get “unstuck”
I told her I would be happy too…and then push her to the store and back to the extended care home.
She looked a little surprised as we started on our way.
It was a little tough going…as the snow was still an issue.
She mentioned that she had had more than a few strokes…which is why she was now in the wheelchair…and why she needed help.
I assured her that it was not trouble.
We got the the little store…I helped her with her purchases…and then moved into position to take her back.
She looked surprised again. “You are really taking me all the way back as well?”
I was surprised at the question…”Yes. Why wouldn’t I?”
Well no one else even stopped to help. So she considered me…different. As the snow would be difficult on the way back as well.
Which of course, is why I wanted to help.
On the way she asked if she could pay me.
I laughed.
No.
She said..I do not know how I will ever be able to say thank-you.
I said…you just did.
I got her back to the extended care home..and then continued on my way.
I thought about it for awhile…
In truth…it was soemthing my Dad and my Mom would not have hesitated to do…or my brother. Or my sister.
And I hoped…it would be something my own children would not hesitate to do.
But I also understood the whole timing issue…the one that bugged me at the beginning?
I left late…or so I thought…but I actually arrived just in time…
Because God knew it was something I would do.
Perhaps that lady was praying…and I got to play a part.
So there is a duality going on…because just as it was a certainty that I did what I did and it helped her…
It also helped refine me.
But I think it depends on WHICH purpose you put first.
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David Hayes Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 10:48 amI think that there are a growing number of free people in the world. I am not one of them. Making the choice to be free would be a very hard one for me. Maybe it has something to do with how I want others to see me … but the last few years have taught me that that isn’t entirely the case. Because, mostly, people don’t see me at all … and those that do see me tend to judge me from a perspective I don’t come from. They don’t see me as I am or as I choose to be seen. So, I know that my actions, unless I behave extremely badly, will not alter others perceptions of me. Yet I behave the same way. So I must be motivated in other ways. I have spoken of programming before, so I will not try to dwell on that very much. But early on, I was cast in the role of well-mannered, responsible child. And I don’t want to be irresponsible mainly because of the way I feel about myself.
Why do I work? I want to eat. I want to have a place to live … not a nice place by anyone’s standards but a place that is relatively warm and sheltered from the elements. I don’t want my work to result in side effects that harm others – physically hurt them through shoddy design; or unfairly cause expense due to poor design, inefficient (pricy) execution, or greed.
Freedom comes from having enough money saved to support yourself while you do what you want to do. Freedom comes from lack of responsibility to anyone or anything. Freedom comes from power to control what you do on a daily basis – being the boss. Freedom comes from not giving a shit about anyone else. We make choices to give away pieces of our freedom. Sometimes it is a good trade — sometimes it is not.
Someone close to me inherited some money. It wasn’t long before he quit his job. Any day he chooses to be is Christmas for him or his friends. But he feels no need to pay rent and still feels entitled to all the perks of being supported. There is no though to paying any bill he personally doesn’t feel like paying and would never think of paying back people who lost money when he went bankrupt a few years ago. His only concern is that he wins a few lawsuits in the near future so he can continue to live the life he has been living the past several months. He is free.
We live on credit thinking that we will buckle down some other day and pay for what we enjoy today … or get lucky with the lottery or the stock market … or go bankrupt and not have to pay for what we enjoyed on credit. But when everyone is free and no one gets around to doing the pay back and everyone thinks that “paying it forward” is for chumps, then the credit supply will lump and the places that people go to get bailed out will be over run … and our freedom will end. Live for today! But what do we condemn your future selves to? But wait! Look at the headlines. That day has come. The bill collector is at the door.
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David Hayes Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 11:04 amPS. Sorry if that made no sense, but a couple people and a couple dogs and cats have made it their mission to keep me from getting any sleep since yesterday. The humans have left the building and I will try again to get a couple hours sleep and see if my outlook gets any cheerier.
And Darwin,
My last pulling a wheelchair through high snow was in 1976 or 77. Maybe it should be an event in the Winter Olympics.
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jennygirl Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 11:08 amI prefer the luge!
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jennygirl Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 11:08 amWheeeeeee!
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David Hayes Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 11:33 amI see I said it correctly, I “pulled” the wheelchair.” The front of the chair acted like a plow if I tried to push it and the accumulating pile in front of us stopped me pretty quickly. The rather large man had a class in the opposit end of the building where his last class had been held and there was a staircase in the middle of the building that there was no way around inside the building. So I had only maybe twenty minutes to get him from one classroom, out the door and around to the opposite side of the building. The sidewalk had about 18 inches of snow on it. Neither one of us reached the opposite end of that building with our dignity intact. One solution would have been a handicapped accessible building. I always preferred the idea of increasing the capacities of the handicapped. Now they have wheelchairs that climb stairs.
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Brittany Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 11:55 amHey Allison! You have done and are doing such incredible things! I loved your statements! I support you to the max to keep doing what your doing and to do whatever you want! I would like to pursue acting after high school and move to Vancouver! I now Smallville won’t be there anymore, but I would definetly like to explore Vancouver and get some great shots of the locations, like the kent farm! Another thing I would liek to do is take some producing/filming classes! I’m so interested it in! Well I wish you all the best on this, and the applause will definetly keep coming from me!!!
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Hardish Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 12:27 pmThere are so many things I want to achieve and I hope I do. I hope you do to Allison, though I think you will girl!
I think it’s time I wrote down the things I want to achieve and want to aim for this year!
Also I must add- Your blogs always make me think.. and are very interesting to read
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taylor nikole Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 12:48 pmoh geeezzz that font! *headache headache*
hahayeah i wonder that sometimes actually…
I wonder if I just put on a show for other people… do i act this way for that attention etc.
I guess its okay to think like that, but I like to veer away from those thoughts (although they are inevitable during the newyear… and I get that).Its actually kinda scary getting down to that point where you examine what you are about… and why and for me it gives me that uneasy and overexcited feeling at the pit of my stomach because I’m so afraid of the realization.
Sure everything I did, even if it wasn’t really me helped me learn… the one that scares me is ‘am i was deep as I say i am or is that a facade I put out to please people or please myself’.
Am I trying too hard for something….
Or am I not trying enough…What I did last year was examined what I had… and one thing i really really loved.
I took my family and friends… and my love for art and eventually tried to let me, my personality, my being bloom from that. (maybe that makes sense.. it does to me).And the thing is… you can’t really just say ‘maybe thats not me’… because change is inevitable within us… if we are lucky we change alot more than not.
Maybe thats just a phase… maybe I don’t want that now… Maybe I’ll start to do something to change that…Its nice… its all a growing process
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Vanessa (spain) Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 12:56 pmIn a sense, I think we´re all “playing parts”, for others, of for ourselves…
I´ve often wondered why I do the things I do. People that knows me say that I have a “good heart”. But I´ve always thought that I try to be a good person because that makes me feel good with myself. So, isn´t that selfish in a way?
Some people feel good by caring only about themselves, and can we blame them for that? Everyone does what it feels better for them…
Supposedly, being empathic and compassionate with others is sign of being a good person. But is all so subjective, because if you think about it, what we call “evil people” are often persons who´ve suffered a lot in their lives or they may have a mental condition that prevents them to feel anything for others… There´s always a reason for a behaviour. So, are those persons really free to choose their actions, or they´re “forced” to be as they are?
I´m not sure if I´m free or not, I only know that I´m lucky to be where I am and I can enjoy my life, and I´m happy for that.
I used to feel guilty about my life some years ago, when I was watching all the bad things happening in the world… But now I know I can take advantage of it. Being little as I am in the Universe, I can make a change if I live my life properly. At least I can make a change in my life, and I think everything will be fine as long as I remember that “my freedom ends when another´s freedom starts”. -
Gnome Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 1:16 pmThe “doing shit” part I’m doing very well…. the “work” is getting on the tracks (at least until now)… and “life” is doing great so far…
I think I know what you are talking about… I used to make all those plans to my life when, actually, I realized that I didn’t know what I really want. And to be honest, I still don´t know…
There is no sense on building your life on a “not defined yet” walls.
So I just stopped to push myself. I don’t have what I “think” I want but I’m learning to want what I’ve got.
Sooooooooo much simplier… And I just have the feeling that I just took this massive, giant weight of my shoulders…
I was being too bossy to myself. I was being my own bitch and I sucked with that.
Now, I just live. Simple as that. I have fun just because of the fun. I don’t have to justify myself for having fun. It doesn’t have to exist any good reason for that, instead of my will of being happy!
Anyway… people are different and what works for me could not work for you.
I’m nobody to tell you the “wrongs” or “rights” of life, but I can tell that I’ve found my “right”. You just have to find yours.
New year, usually are great to give you a new perspective…
So enjoy your insights and take a good advantage of it!
You are still young and have much time ahead. You can do many shits you want and get back on track again…
Hope you find your way!
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Joe Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 1:22 pmHi Allison =) awesome insight.
I definitely agree.
I had similar (in a sense) insight with myself as I explored my own journey.
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mmm.. so life ought not to simply be lived for others or for reactions from others, for approval and so on..
but it left a question
if I may ask.. =)
so why?
what experiences ARE YOU seeking for yourself?
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Vanessa (spain) Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 1:24 pmJoe, I think that´s a really interesting question, and if you don´t mind, could we extend it to everyone in here? What experiences are we all seeking and why?
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Patrick Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 1:29 pmVery nice and philosophical, but errr could you change your font back next time please, it’s hard to read…
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David Hayes Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 1:49 pmPatrick,
Ref. the font. If she doesn’t write a blog entry for someone else to read it, the font selection doesn’t matter.
Gnome,
I guess you shouldn’t build your life on walls — maybe on pntoons and/or runners so you can take your life experiences with you anywhere. That’s why no education should be too specific and specialized … because then it will fail you anytime you step beyond your bounds.
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Avitable Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 2:17 pmI look forward to seeing what you do this year with this new perspective.
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Maria Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 2:33 pmAllison, It’s very interesting your topic. I guess everyone in life looks for a reason to do what they do or else it’s like you’re simply floating letting the tide move you and not moving. Me, as a Christian, I believe that when God put us on this earth he did it for a reason. He gave me different talents and abilities in order for me to find out what they are and find out the purpose of why he gave me those talents and learn what he wants me to do with them. Now before you scroll down and think “Oh, well, she’s doing it for God not for herself” but God wouldn’t give me talents or abilities that I wouldn’t enjoy doing. He gave them to me, knowing how I am, knowing I love doing it, and he gives me the choice to whether use them or throw them away. It depends on me, and only me, if I’ll use them or not.
When I decide to use them, I then start looking for a way to use the talent that he gave me. And when I know that I’m using the talent in his name, knowing that I actually have a reason to do it, I don’t feel empty at the end of it. I don’t feel like I did it for nothing. I did it for him and for me. I learn even more about him and about me. And that makes every experience unforgettable and beautiful.
I’m not saying that everyone’s experience can’t be beautiful and unforgettable without Christ. But I believe, and have experienced, that when you have Christ in your heart and have a purpose in life that that makes every experience a little bit more beautiful and unforgettable.
I hope you don’t think me a religious nut now! lol I hope i got the point across.
Xoxo
Maria
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jesse Ca Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 2:35 pmHi Allison
To be true to oneself is not an easy endeavor to accomplish. The world is full of “obligations” that you might have to deal with; however, I know you would get through them and still try to be honest with yourself. This reminds me of Bruce Lee’s philosophy dealing with expression, to be true to oneself and express oneself honesty without lying to oneself. This can be all kinds of art forms or beliefs and I just combined them to create who I am. I think based on my experience you might notice congruency’s between the things you hold to be true, it shares a common characteristic, sometimes not all the time, whether it being strength or virtue or what have you. I do however, thing this is a great path you are embarking on, you are already thinking in depth to begin with and I know you will do fine. Oh and I disagree with one thing you said, I don’t think you need makeup to look umm
- Jesse
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taylor nikole Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 3:31 pmi think its alot like…
when we are younger we think the wold favors us… the world is ours.. its at our feet (sure in a way it is)
but as we grow up… we learn its basically the opposite…
so many of us… almost all of try to work to be in that favor…
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Neil Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 7:20 pmWow, once again you’ve delved into some deeeeeep shit! I am always amazed at how insightful you are at such a young age (26, lol). I know, I sound like a world-weary old fart. Well, getting to 50 yrs old wasn’t easy, and was filled with emotional potholes along the way. All that said, maybe you’re being too hard on yourself? After all, being an actor/actress is a profession of “lies” in a way. True you’re telling a story, but it’s not one about you. You’re portraying someone else … either real or imaginary. It’s not about you, rather it is about the skill with which you portray that person, that is of importance. A skilled portrayal brings that character to life. And that is the success you should judge yourself by. In my humble opinion, you do an utterely fantastic job in your chosen career. And with the things you accomplish in your personal life, you must also be an incredible human being! For all that you do, this kudo’s for you!
Neil
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Heather W Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 7:24 pmHi Allison,
Great Entry. If everyone sought to be their best authentic selves this world would be an amazing place. Though I think it’s pretty special. I had a moment today as I ran through a snow filled Central Park. I thought, I do this because it makes me feel connected to the earth, not because it helps keep my figure.
Enjoy your journey.
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Jade Ruby Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 7:57 pmWith me, I find that I have a tendency to just go through the motions. I know that I can break out of this rut, but it is so comfortable and habitual. I know what I want, yet I still am hesitant to form a mission for myself. Yet I am well aware that there needs to be more than “half a page of scribbled lines”. I’ve put up a shell lately, a shell that has really always has been there since I was a teenager, but now I have strengthened it so much more. I really don’t feel as if I’m free to be myself anymore–sensitive, and full of joy and enthusiasm. But I have matured enough to know more than, “To Hell with the whole world!!!” However, I will still reserve my freedom to pick and choose my time regardless, because I am tired of feeling angry so often and it just doesn’t have to be that way.
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Gnome Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 8:02 pmHey David Hayes,
The walls I meant by foundations or beliefs. You have to set a basis point to construct your life or it will be senseless. You’ve got to set what you take for the right thing in your life. If you don’t do it, is gonna be like sailing with the wind on the control of your boat. And I think God haven’t give us “free will” just to see the boat astray…
And I do agree with you about the walls and the specialized education. I’m one of those who thinks that kinda of thing limit our infinite possibilities. But I also agree that they can works like a set point to something bigger. YOU are the one responsible for letting it limiting or spreading your horizons…
So I think the walls are important at the beggining cause give you the right direction and inspire you to something further…
Feel free to desagree. I would love to hear another point of view.
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Ashley Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 8:24 pmI think that if someone is happy with the journey they are currently on, then it is the right journey.
“Like I am always simply playing a part.”
The experiences that you have been through as an actress have made you who you are today. There will be more experiences in the future, but if you left what you are currently doing, you will never be able to go back.
I would never regret such amazing journeys.
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Bill Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 8:43 pmQuite an interesting and amazing insight. I could not agree with you more. This is one of the major ideas that I have learned and pondered about while in college. Why am I here? Not only for the education and job in the future, but for the experience. Analyzing everything in your life experience is tough but, once you able to figure out what you want I believe that you will be able to become what monks call “enlightened”. Wish you the best!
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Krystal Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 9:45 pmIt is so uncanny sometimes the similarities in the things that you write and the moments of self-evaluation and revelation that I am having in my own life. I’m sure that part of it has to do with our close proximity in age, but wow. I honestly could have written your words myself.
I recently found this quote that says:
“Treat every project you work on as a learning experience, and you will find that failure can be a very creative place.”
I think I stumbled across it in an article on how to write a musical. As my eyes crossed these simple words unsuspectingly, I was changed. I have made it my mantra and it has set me free in so many ways.
I am not going to lie…it wasn’t like “POOF” I no longer care what others think of me if I fail. Though that would be nice, but it has given me courage to live more for me and to try more than I think I can handle.
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AnthonyAN Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 9:53 pmWhat was your conclusion?
Do you keep a clean house just for the company that comes over?
Do you wear make up so that someone thinks you’re beautiful?
Do you only write blogs for people to read them?
Do you only play parts for the applause?
Very cool you’re willing to look at yourself with a stronger lens, most people rather go blind.
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Aysha Says:
January 19th, 2009 at 11:38 pmI have been wondering the same thing, Allison, as I am sure a lot of other people have at some point in their lives.
Why do we REALLY do the things that we do? Is it for us or for others to see and appreciate so that we can reflect that appreciation back to us and feel a false sense of fulfillment?
I have found that I keep going in circles and repeating the same mistakes and I know that I am the only one who can get off this carousel of insanity. I am too willing to please others and make them happy to a fault.
It’s hard to see myself without a crowd around. I need to see me for me.
I am not sure if I exactly spell out your thoughts, but your new take on life got me to thinking about how I can break out of my shell and how I can improve myself this year.
You truly inspire us to take a deeper look into ourselves.
I hope that your journey is exactly if not more of what you hoped it would be.
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Puffy Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 12:48 amThe spirit of the letter is good: nothing wrong with seeking some freedom and looking for what you enjoy.
But my question is: could you really stand to be invisible? Like David H. said, it’s a very different world when people will ignore you and you feel the need to conform just to have acceptance.
To pull the pop culture reference: it’s like those shows where hot person puts on a fat suit. Over and over again, the same theme comes up “being invisible”… not getting service, people not making eye contact vs the attention they get when attractive. So do you wear make up so that other people think you’re beautiful? Maybe… or maybe because it’s hard on the soul the way you’re treated when people find you unattractive or uninteresting.
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Joe Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 1:29 amOh great idea, I don’t mind Vanessa (spain), I’d love to hear others’ response too.. thanks for posing the question out to others.
I find that as we share our purpose / journey, it helps us to further explore and even re-discover our own path.. and could even help to “texture” our original ideas to give it so much more flavor and color, life, etc.. =D
In this way, sharing does not have to be simply a way to seek approval / reaction, but it could be a courageous, creative, & playful way to fully expressing and exploring ourselves while either connecting with another, or learning from one another.. ^_^
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jason Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 1:51 amallison i think your the best at what you do. whatever you do. i know smallville isnt going to last forever. but i feel you should do what makes you feel happy. you have the chances to do whatever you want so go for it. THIS IS YOUR STEPPING STONE. love with all my heart… and may your 09 be fine!
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Robin Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 2:37 amHi Allison,
What a powerful statement of intent.
It is frustrating sometimes as to why we “feel” obliged to do certain things in our lives – for loved ones, for friends, our peers, financial reasons and hopefully ourselves.
I’m a liar too, because I lie to myself as to the reasons why I choose to do certain things, I do them out of fear of WHAT IF rather then making decisions based on WHY NOT, this is my own personal challange of 2009 , to start living in the here and now!
We all play parts in our lives, talk and behave a certain way around different types of people – and I know I sometimes doubt which one is the genuine me!
Whatever 2009 brings I hope you do the things you wish to do!
We are all fans of the work you produce and this site but I hope you never consider us a burdon or an obligation – we are simply the lucky ones who get to enjoy your performances and read your experiences without all the hard work, time and effort.
Make the best choices for your own joy and experience.
I’ll leave you with a couple of quotes…
“Play is the higest form of research” -Albert Einstein
“Any life, no matter how long and complex it may be, is made up of a single moment in which a man finds out, once and for all, who he is.”
Jorge Luis BorgesTake care Allison and keep having fun in all your future experinces -” To thy own self be true”
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Claud Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 6:33 amKind of like what Chuck Yeager’s career advice, “Pick something you enjoy doing. Forget the money angle, within reason. If you enjoy what you’re doing, you’ll adjust your lifestyle to meet your income. And if you enjoy it well enough, you’ll be outstanding because you’ll always like doing it”
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The Friday Philosopher! Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 7:01 amThat sounds like quite a tall order if I’m honest! As we have discussed previously, change is not the easiest thing to do, and I should imagine it would be even harder if your life is contained, involuntarily within public domain! I think that most of us have or will spend some part of our life lying to ourselves about who we are, and this fallacy might even become so believable that we begin to lie to others, even those closest to us!
I’m glad to say that I have changed my perspective, but unlike most, I didn’t choose to change. I have the utmost respect for those who can see and effect a need to change something about themselves; I personally thought you were one of the few genuine people in the world, but I concede the fact that you will always know yourself better than I do! I am far from an expert in most of the matters of life, so I have no intention of filling this space with an anecdote about my experience, instead I would just like to congratulate you for undertaking the task ahead, and wish you all the luck in the world!
Take care
Friday
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David Hayes Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 7:26 amPuffy,
I’ll try to find the zipper on my fat suit! And I agree that sometimes invisible people chose to conform, but often they (we) do the opposite just to be noticed and a little less invisible. Ever see the “Twilight Zone” episode where Burgess Meredith is becoming more and more invisible to the world? Before he fades out of existence, he decides what the heck and climbs on the back of a statue of a lion next to the steps of a public building. He had always wanted to ride on that lion’s back. As he does, he begins to hear laughter. People are pointing at him. By daring to do what he wants to do (and being a little on the odd side in public), he has become visible to the world again.
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Ruthie Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 8:02 amBeing present, living in the experience…awake. Freedom from attachment to outcome. Living authentically. These are themes that strike a chord.
The parts we play are innate, it’s true, no matter what our position in life. We instinctively play to people around us. Certain career choices could definitely accentuate that!
But no matter our role in life, the key is to embrace it for what it is, to grow through it…that is joy. Slow through life, awake and aware, true presence….truly living each experience in life, whether it be folding clothes, feeling sunshine on your face, wiping little noses, sitting in a class, expressing your artfulness, alone or surrounded by people. Being aware is a practice that dissolves ego and your perceptions of other’s story of you. It is freeing…freedom only comes from within.
As the lovely Byron Katie asks, “Who would you be without your story?”Free…full of love for ourselves and others.
May this year be one of growth and joy for all!
love, love, love…
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Matthew Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 8:56 amI believe that yes we are all humans and capeable of reaching goals, maybe not all. This leads to just getting of my ass and doing them. I mean i really do not know what causes motivation. Maybe the need to grow and mature. Who knows it more of a personal thing. Well theres my little imput. I think we almost work together as human beings in a way in which we do things for others. Like a bridge can not be bulit with one piece of wood. If this makes any sense, probably not, but oh well.
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Jennifer Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 9:00 amVery deep Allison. Tonight I’m going to sit down and really think about why I do anything. Get out a notebook and write down different things and really take the time to think…why? I hope to get a better meaning of my journey.
I’m a little out of it this morning so hope this makes sence to you.
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Silvia Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 12:05 pmTHE JOURNEYS OF LIFE
Hello Allison,
I have to admit that I wasn’t sure whether I ought to reply this post of yours or not. There are so many things I could say about it, but maybe there are so many things better left unsaid as well. I don’t know you personally, what makes it somehow difficult. However, I’m quite familiar with your statement which allows me to write a reply to you as if you were a close friend of mine.
“But that being said, we must take charge of our own experience and know and understand our own journey for us.
Know and understand your own journey for you.
Know and understand my own journey for me.
That way, when I am in the experience I am in it for me.
Living it with no fear or attachment to the outcome, only the experience.”
- After I read this I reasoned that it’s not necessary to say anything. It seems you found your way. Yet I’d like to throw in my two pennies worth.People who know me say that I have wisdom far beyond my age. Still there are many things I have to learn. So what is this wisdom? A big fat lie? No, because wisdom doesn’t mean that I’m omniscient. Maybe I’m just a very good adviser. For many people I am too nice. Nevertheless, there are people who can’t stand me, but this doesn’t matter, because I can’t stand them either. “Too nice”? Sounds like a big fat lie since those who dislike me certainly disagree with that. Still, it’s true and sometimes it even turns out negative for me. So I’ve been fixing that for a while now, but I’ve still had some occasional backslides.
What I’m saying is that nothing turns out as big fat lie and no one becomes a big fat liar because of a different point of view. In case it does, we luckily all have the chance to think twice.
So what is a lie or a liar? The truth is, lies belong to the attributes of human kind. We all tell lies from time to time. The difference is the way we do so – conscious or subconscious.
“I suddenly realized that I am a big fat liar. So many of the things in my life I claim to want or have are only because of the way this looks.”
- I don’t think it’s not that worse. You just found your feet again. Have you ever considered that you maybe just wanted for the wrong things? Or you may have just thought to own things you haven’t. We all have our wishes and dreams and sometimes we long so much for ‘em that those become a lively illusion. Therefore it’s important that we never lose touch with reality. However, does this make you a liar? No, it makes you human, Allison Mack. It makes you human.“Like I am always simply playing a part. How silly, what a silly waste of time.”
- Don’t worry; you’re not just playing a role. You’re not just a facet or a masquerade. You’re much more than that. What I am saying is that I think that when it comes to the real you, you hesitate because you’re uncertain of other people’s reaction. You want to please them which might lead you to the wrong paths. This feeling of simply playing a part comes from dissatisfaction. You came to a point you realised that it’s not the real you, not the right path. Hence, it’s not what you wanted and every thing seems to be nothing but a lived lie. Yet, it was all real, but since you possibly made some wrong decisions in order to please others, you didn’t go your own way. Not all of us find the right way for each of us at once. This can make quite unhappy.
“As I started to ask and answer these questions for myself, I started to see why I do these things, really.
What type of experience I am seeking for me.”
- Congratulations, you’ve done it. You freed yourself. Therefore, it was necessary to take some time off for pondering and I think you’re on the right track now. As Katharine Hepburn said: “Life is to be lived.” – She was right. But more important than to live one’s life is to dare to do so.
Don’t be afraid, do not hesitate – just dare, Allison. No matter what people think or say – dare to be yourself, dare to live yourself, but above all this, dare to live!
You’ll see, as soon as you’ve made your own way for a while, you’ll experience an astounding satisfaction or even happiness. You’ll come to the point you can say: “Yes, that’s who I am and that’s what I want!” – Just dare!
… And No, it wasn’t a waste of time and it’s certainly not silly. You just feel that way because you’re somehow disappointed. Yet you had to make these experiences in order to find to yourself. Our life includes one journey after another. Of course there are some journeys we’d love to miss, but without those we’re incomplete. We have to learn from the lessons life teaches us.“What would happen if I disregarded the “character” I am attempting to portray and actually lived for me.”
- You know, the journeys of life are those paths we build by making our choices and decisions; even though we’re not always the architect of our roads. Look at all those big stars in film and music. Why did they become famous? – Because somebody offered or gave them a chance and they used this opportunity. So did you.
What would have happened if you disagreed? – Well, I guess you’ll never know. Hence, it doesn’t make much sense to ask this question. But if you’re curious whether you’d have become famous by refusing… Know this: You did not only become famous because you’ve been portraying Chloe Sullivan. Of course you benefited from the Show’s success, but just figure, if you’d be a lousy actress you’d never gained such fame. Your fame is the result of your work in public and you work really good. Besides you made huge progress during the last few years. You grow with your work and this is no mean feat. You can be proud of you.
“…the “character” I am attempting to portray and actually lived for me.” – The character an actor or actress portrays is a lifeless description on paper. It’s the actor/actress who brings the role to life. Your “character” didn’t live for you. I think you’re rather afraid that your performance isn’t good enough. An unpleasant feeling, but it allows you to grow, Allison. What you did.
“Why play a part if it is not for the applause?” – It should be for your own pleasure as well. I personally think that this is even more important than any applause. However, for getting applause you don’t need to play a part – just do something… not even necessary something great.“Why wear make up if it is not to have someone think of me as beautiful?”
- As I already told you in my very first posting… true beauty comes from the inside. As soon as someone has seen your true colours no make up can hide ‘em because from this day forth this person will only see the real you. So what’s make up for then? – It’s for the illusions we create and perform.Okay, I think this reply got a little long . However, I think you and I sort of finally came to sort of the same conclusion.
“A practice free of obligation and filled with honesty. A year of truth that will be the start to a lifetime of depth!” – In my opinion, truth and honesty should always be the essence of every single day in our life. Make your way – just dare!Best wishes
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Ann Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 12:09 pmAlso in 2009, The Katharine Hepburn Cultural Arts Center and Theater will open in Hepburn’s beloved seaside town of Old Saybrook, Connecticut.
Opening will be this summer…currently we have a blog about all things “Hepburn.”
You have an opportunity to be a “founding fan” of the theater by going to our Facebook page here:
http://apps.facebook.com/causes/178598?recruiter_id=17660434
This “little gem of a place with a movie star name” is going o be beautiful
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Joseph T. Hall Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 1:15 pmI feel I need to mention something… With all the talk on this site about our goals and dreams and asparations, what about those people who don’t know what those are? Those confused people who don’t know what to do with their life, who sort of drift along each day, not knowing what’s next? This has never happened to me, as I’ve been blessed with knowing exactly what I want to do with my self, and obviously Allison wouldn’t know this feeling, but think about this; What if, tommorrow, all the dreams we have for our future were shattered, abolished, decimated? Would we be the same people, Happy and full of life, or would we be an empty shell, drifting along our lives? Are our dreams what make us who we are?
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Joseph T. Hall Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 1:23 pmAlso, I need to ask: What episode did she direct and when is it going to be aired?
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shinefloyd / luigi Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 2:15 pmHi.
Just I am reading a book…. “Warrior of the Light” ,Paulo Coelho…. in spanish.And this book seems to have a little connection with your new post.
I think… that you like Paulo Coelho… and maybe you know this little book, otherwise… read “Warrior of the Life”!
aahhh…. Welcome again to the South American Culture.
This time… was Quito… maybe next time…. Rio de Janeiro… Buenos Aires… Punta del Este…. Cuzco….
La Paz… Caracas… Cali… Valparaiso… Asuncion.“El Sur” is waiting for you!
best wishes
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Vegas911 Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 2:44 pmGood one…….I do the things that I do for the approval of others. I want to be liked, so even if I don’t want to do something, I will do it anyway…because someone else wants it…….why can’t I just say no….and do what I want to do????? Because I am afraid that I will disappoint someone….or maybe I feel like if people don’t NEED me, then they will not WANT me!! Ah, it sounds so patheic when you actually verbalize it!!! I don’t do things for the expierience of it, I do things out of the necessity of it……what would my life be if I lived it for me……would I just stand still, or would I come to life??? Only one way to tell!!
BTW…..HIYA LUIGI!!!! How are things in South America today??!!??!! Write to me on SH!!!
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Anthony V Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 3:01 pmAs I write this response, its my final semester of College life and that of my student teaching. Its also the last time I’ll probably have some freedom before being tied down to a job. So, in that sense, im going to do my best to have fun with people that care about me. I feel like im always trying to change so that I’m acceptable to other people. I can’t keep doing that, because its not fair to me. I’m going to keep the qualities that I like about me, but I’m also not going to change just to make others happy. Of course I’m going to continue to change any flaw I have, but if its just to please people, I can’t do that. Its time to truely live for me like I’ve done in the past.
BTW, you did an awesome job portraying Brainiac in Smallville on Thursday. Keep up the good work, and I can’t wait to see your directing debut.
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David Hayes Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 4:37 pmIs this really a new year? It seems the same to me. I found an innovative solution to an impossible design requirement and the management reviewed it in a meeting and said they wanted a unique, new design that was exactly like everything they already make … and they want opening the thing to be ‘un-obvious” so that now one can figure out how to open it … yet intuitive to open. Durable … but cheaper than anything they have made before. Seems like the same year to me.
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Brittany Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 5:43 pmHi Allison, again, I have to say that your performance as Chloe AKA Brainiac was simply amazing and just blew me away!
I know sometimes I do things to satisfy others or to just make me feel good about myself. Sometimes, in the morning I debate on making myself pretty for school or not. I usually end up taking the easy way out. No make up. Or maybe it’s just me not making an effort. But then again I don’t feel 100% comfortable without make up just yet. I think we should just take one day at a time and do what’s right, for us and for our souls so that in the end we know we did it for the great and good. Your acting inspires me every day and helps me to want to pursue acting in the near future as well as become an amazing and talented woman like you. You are so young, creative, talented, and have a life full of oppurtinities ahead! Don’t forget that we, your loving fans, will always be here for you no matter what. Playing roles gives you the chance to prove your capacity and limits to becoming and playing those characters! So far, you’ve done an excellent job and Chloe couldn’t be formed and made the way she is without you playing her! She is an incredible, strong, good hearted girl just like you! I hope my post makes sense and I hope you know that finding this website and finding out who you are is such an amazing and important thing to me!
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Ross UK Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 6:17 pmIt’s an interesting idea that you propose – that we tend to live our lives to the ideals that are expected of us. There is novel called “Neverness” by David Zindell which touches on theories of predestination. In short, he suggests that fate is no more than the result of other people’s expectations. If you have a choice to smash something or not and choose not to, it is not because you made a choice through Free Will, it is because it is how you’ve been ‘programmed’ to behave by society – it is the expectation of others.
My own life receives very little scrutiny from others, so I feel comfortable enough to say that I am not who I am because of how I want to be perceived. I consider myself a moral person because that is the person I want to be, not because I wish to prove myself to others. That’s not to say that I am satisified with being the person I am now – the reassessments you have been talking about in recent blogs are a perennial thing for me. I am forever identifying things about myself that I want to change, that are holding me back, but actually taking steps to make those changes is easier said than done. I’m afraid I’m a little like the person that David described above – waiting for something to happen, for the right person, the right job, a lottery win, all to fall into my lap, and then everything else will fall into place. I find myself making frequent, frantic efforts which cannot be sustained, then I fall back into lethargy and apathy.
At the end of the day, it is I think like you say – understanding the journey. The destination is not the be all and end all, it’s about understanding the route you want to take, and why you chose it.
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Bouroux Says:
January 20th, 2009 at 9:53 pmHi Allison.
It is a very interesting analysis of the behavior that you did.
It is true that we are liars. When someone asks if I feel good, I always replie yes, to avoid having to explain.
The reaction of others is very important especially when you are young. Then we realized that our models that seemed so perfect have weaknesses.
“What would happen if I disregarded the “character” I am attempting to portray and actually lived for me.”
I think that there would be some changes in certain circumstances but in all the character you play is wrote by you.
You direct your character in fonction of different influences.
In fact it is to ensure that the characteristics of the character that you play respect well our values and not those of others.
You are a truly inspirational person and this is really you in the depths of yourself.
In your blog Barbies, there were descriptions of the differents Allison.
In some circumstances, you have to play the role that we can achieve our objectives.
To become a doctor must be willing to make sacrifices for many years.
We live in a society that has these rules but to be happy, we must live in the light of our values.
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James Says:
January 21st, 2009 at 2:20 pmI think the perspective that you are beginning to view life seems a little skewed.
From the examples you’ve given it seems that you want to move away completely from doing things you do for other people and fully live for yourself and your experience. And that sounds noble, but the examples you give from wearing makeup to doing this blog are somewhat disconcerting. And a little set apart from the message of community and discussion you have been putting forth on this blog for the past few years, so I want to ask you this question: If you only do things for yourself (or, for that matter, if you attempt to act always considering fully every existential question you have put forth questioning the way you live your life on this blog) will you do anything at all? Maybe you could answer me in a future blog if you like. I’d really like to know:) -
Dick B Says:
January 21st, 2009 at 6:02 pmIf you do things for yourself it doesn’t mean that you are doing them against other people.
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richard maxwell Says:
January 22nd, 2009 at 1:16 amLately I have been feeling that my life has not been filled with much truth. Not only do I lie to myself daily, but by doing so I lie to others as well. I am starting to realizes that this is something so many people struggle with. We all want to be loved and excepted for who we are but this behavior makes it impossible for that to truly be possible. I am encouraged to see that we as a people can see the walls we create from within and start to break them down. As long as we try to change for the better there is hope for all. Go Obamma
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Jade Ruby Says:
January 22nd, 2009 at 2:55 pmOk. So I know I have the strength to do more than fearing a new and potentially awesome situation. Now I must do more than think to myself, “OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG!!!” Time to pull that initiative out of the depths, and take action.
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Lynsey Says:
January 24th, 2009 at 5:01 amWell, I read your post last night and have been pondering it ever since, so my response is a combination of sleep deprivation and caffeine infusion!
Shakespeare did say, “All the world’s a stage, and all the men and women merely players”.
We all play a role depending on our situation so does that mean that who I am is defined by where I am? No, because all of the roles I play make me… well, me.
I think the trick is to push through fear and insecurity and do what you do because it makes you happy. Sure, it’s great if someone reads your blog and enjoys it – but does it really matter if they don’t? Not if you enjoyed writing it.
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Eric Wilson Says:
January 28th, 2009 at 8:43 amHey, Allison!
awesome insight.
I definitely agree on you 100%.
I believe that when God put us on this earth he did it for a reason.
He gave me different talents and abilities in order for me to find out what they are and find out the purpose of why he gave me those talents and learn what I can do like playing guitar, and draw pictures!Still haven’t figured out my life is though, everyone makes mistakes and i do learn from mistakes and never had a mistake for along time… but i’am still trying to figure out where to go from here I do want my life and myself to have a job as an actor, but i’m stuck like in a little metal cage full of kryptonite i’m 30 years old wish any actress or actor could give me some adivce that i need to know always wanted to be on tv and movies and i have no experience since it cost way to much to go to college these days.
Allison you are a wonderful talented actress and the most beautiful woman in the world inside and outside… I care about you and i am glad to have you as my friend and I do really love what things you do in life, your career on the show biz is going great and you do an excellent job.. what i’m trying to say is “I am here if you need someone to talk to”, “You’re are not alone” I care so much about you and friends and you will forever be in my heart forever!
Allison i can’t wait for the episode “Power” I really look forword in watching the episode you are going to be directing and hope you’ll be able to direct an episode again…
may this day bring you a lots of joy and fun 4 the whole year, enjoy your life 2 its fullest with your friends and family.I really hope you have a wonderful lovely week, you are truely a special woman in the world hope you take great care and be safe.
Showing you lots of love, peace, support and respect!
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David Harvey Says:
January 29th, 2009 at 5:30 pmOne of the things I’ve always wondered about actors/acting is how is a person to know when meeting a person outside of their “roles” really being themselves, or is that person still acting? That is how do you know if that person is being themselves, or are they “putting on a mask” and still playing a part?
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Silvia Says:
January 30th, 2009 at 8:47 amJoseph T. Hall Says:
„With all the talk on this site about our goals and dreams and asparations, what about those people who don’t know what those are? Those confused people who don’t know what to do with their life, who sort of drift along each day, not knowing what’s next?”- Somebody who doesn’t know what he/she wants usually doesn’t know who he/she is either. Finding oneself is the first thing to do in this case. If you know who you are, you usually know what you want as well. Besides everybody has some dreams even though some of us do not dare to live or realise them. It’s not enough to have some aspirations. Courage, confidence, patience, strength and faith, help to let wishes come true, but one has to dare and to try… and of course there’s some work within as well.
David Harvey Says:
“One of the things I’ve always wondered about actors/acting is how is a person to know when meeting a person outside of their “roles” really being themselves, or is that person still acting? That is how do you know if that person is being themselves, or are they “putting on a mask” and still playing a part?”Hi David,
You asked some very interesting questions and I know the answers. First of all you have to understand that actors/artists… well, let’s say they are very special creatures. However, a real actor or actress is always sort of in a role. Yet, this does not mean that they are not real.
A true actor or actress is always real, but always acting as well. This is their nature!
If you accept this you’ll never have a problem to have an actor or actress somewhere in your life (circle of friends or so).Yet, there are also some actors/actresses who use their ability to fool others. However, if you have a good knowledge of human nature and are able to see through intrigues or bullying, you can’t be fooled.
I hope I could help you with my reply and now I’ll continue curing my pneumonia.
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SolShine7 Says:
January 30th, 2009 at 12:39 pmA toast to “living the experience”. Cheers!
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valeria Says:
February 4th, 2009 at 12:49 pmWhen were you in my country? you should visit Guayaquil too, it is so much better than Quito.
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Conduit0 Says:
February 6th, 2009 at 11:30 pmAh, there’s nothing more cool than those “aha!” moments. They may tend to keep you up all night with lots of new thoughts running through your head, but it’s a good sort of insomnia that everybody needs to have once in awhile.
Ironically, I find that a good way to get those “aha!” moments (where you suddenly have a new idea or a big re-evaluation of something) is by clearing your head of thoughts and being one with what you happen to be doing.
Whether it’s motorcycle repair, baking a cake, painting something, golfing (“Be…the ball”, Chevy Chase), or whatever you are doing, be one with it.
Stop the internal monologue of your thoughts, tune out surrounding distractions, and just focus on nothing but the act of what you are doing. Be one with it, and you get that zen sense of the present, of the now. And as you wordlessly exist in the present moment, you’d be surprised at the insights that begin to rise up from the depths of your subconscious.
Those insights tend to be the most important information you’ll get all day, as they will stay with you the longest.
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david Says:
February 20th, 2009 at 5:07 amI have always heard the phrase “The world is but a stage, and we all are just mere actors in it” and ” to thyne own self be true” for me i have always tried to be open, and honest to every experiance i have, and definitly be myself. Some people like it, and others kinda shy away from it, but for me i like the fact that i can talk openly, and honestly with no regrets. Of course i do have to gauge who i am talking with in regards to their feelings on certain subjects, and not only try and speak openly, but also listen to what is being said. Only cause certain subjects are a little more touchy than others. Shoot, it seems as though i have been searching for my inner self for a very long time, and every once in awhile i will get a glimpse of that inner power, only to lose it again…..LOL
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david Says:
February 20th, 2009 at 5:27 amI saw an interview with Christopher Reeve in which he had said something to the effect that, actors can take an amazing journey into themselves to pull out the emotions that they never knew existed to portray a charactor, and that the charactor never plays the actor, but the actor plays the charactor:)
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Eurico Rodrigues Says:
March 2nd, 2009 at 8:22 pmYou would think life has many things to offer rather than just life itself. I believe it does not offer anything else besides the opportunity for you to use your life in the best way you think/feel/believe it’s fit. So it’s not a question of “why” but a question of “why the hell not”, don’t you think?
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melotos Says:
March 13th, 2009 at 3:29 pmhello allison, hello lovely people
i just came across a picture of allison mack- (&recently i saw some (many) episodes of smallville)
then an act on instinct…a click on her pic.wow- she made this day for me.
didn’t had a good one; what i read on your page and the
way you wrote it really cheered me up.
this may sound tacky but thank you very much for this
moment*just wanted to let you know
i am overwhlemed by great emotion about the things i found out about your work and yourself!
”if you never never try you will never never know.”
a qoute from the entrance of mattaranka a small town in the land of the never never
i read this when i was 20, travelling for 1 1/2 years thoughout asia (laos, thailand ,cambodia) &australia (tasmania, outback…., arnhemland)
at that time i experienced so much new
the world in my heart
i was so far away from what i knew and therefor so close to myself
as you travel you cross magic all the time.
i will post some of my magical ecperiences on this site soon…
be courios
greetings from the black forest
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Nicki Says:
March 13th, 2009 at 3:40 pmI have been learning that lesson through travel as well. Enjoying every moment and not taking pictures to prove that you accomplished something, but taking pictures to remember the moment that was experienced.
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David potter Says:
March 18th, 2009 at 9:12 amI am the actor trying to play somebody that is me but who am I ?I have no script even though it all seems scripted at times.I am looking for something I dont know what it is and have never seen it but i know its real.While I am searching for this I feel a monster fallowing me.Its like what I have been searching for my entire life.I have seen it smelt it or even heard it i just know its real because I can feel it.I dont know why I do alot of the things I do only that everything is connected some how.Like most people I wanna be happy.I just dont really know how.Maybe I am looking for somebody or something that might not be real but I keep looking.What is the truth I dont know but what if I did find it would I be happy again I dont know.I have the power to see people beyond the act that they play a gift and cursebut I still cant see past my mask.I am stoping every few moments when I write this to think thats why I have been going all over if its alittle confuseing.I am in Iraq on deployement and I have relised that we are all the same on this earth lost,scared,looking for truth we just dont understand because we are probly to close to the big picture.I wanna travel the world and search for what I am looking for.Maybe I am looking for an experience that I need in life now that I think about it.Just maybe thats what we are all looking for.So many questions so little time.I have never been nothing but honest with everyone around me and myself I just dont allways know the truth even if its all in black and white.I miss my home but Im not sure if that is the place I wanna be.I am a good person I hope.I want nothing but the best and happyness for all.I understand Just what you mean about life.I hope you or somebody can make sence of all that I have written I took my sweet time and went back afew times to see what you wrote.I am not weak nor strong I am just me doing the best that i can while trying to go on day by day and be happy.I feel that im fighting something and the battle has been going on forever so I dont know why am I even writeing this maybe somebody else can make sence of me.If you do please tell me.Funny this all just came to me after reading your thoughts.I think I am alittle crazy.I need a friend. Maybe you or somebody you know can help.Can you help me ? I am the truth and the truth hurts.
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Lissy Says:
April 3rd, 2009 at 9:07 ami was just wondering now that your going into another season (9) of smallville dont you get scared that you might be too comfortable there and it must be scary imagining life after that! i mean speakig from experience nothing is as easy after you have such a great experience you kind of hope to find something like it all the time but things either never give you that same feeling of safety again or it gets scarier to pursue new things (gosh i ramble)
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Lissy Says:
April 3rd, 2009 at 9:08 amalso we do things for other people to notice us, we all want to be told we’re good enough or to have our work appreciated its part of human nature
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Marc-Andre Ferland Says:
April 9th, 2009 at 6:58 amAll human beings should try to learn before they die what they are running from, and to, and why.
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Adam Says:
June 25th, 2009 at 2:21 amIt’s really interesting how I never thought in those terms. So you’re contemplating at the life in front of you, saying : well, how do I want to live it ? Who do I want to be ? And you can actually do it ? Well I almost never took a decision in my life, I mean only a bunch of very little ones, like I always kind of followed the stream. Which is far from being mainstream, if that has any sense, but anyway… I have never been able to choose. At 5 I broke in tears in front of different little cakes, pies etc, because I just couldn’t choose one. It’s terrible but it’s a summary of my life until now ( I’m 30). Hmm… I have to start to change that. Follow your example ! I have a feeling it will not be easy…
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