long lost friends of my blog!
Posted by Allison Mack | Filed under Blog
Another year has past and I have a fresh age; one with no mistakes in it, yet. Well, none that seem too huge anyway! I have already said I was going to do something and not done it, left my pajamas on the floor of my bathroom, and had nasty thoughts about a friend of mine who was doing something I wanted to do. But hey, I am human no?
It’s funny. I remember being a little kid and looking at myself in the mirror and thinking, “When I get big, I will have it all together, I will know who I am and I will feel beautiful and confident all the time.”
Well, I am definately big now, in my late 20s in fact, and I am still waiting for the confidence and the beauty! It is so funny, I really thought I would hit a certain age and be “grown up”. Grown up? What is that? Like all of a sudden you don’t play, you don’t explore and ask stupid questions. You know what you are doing and where you are headed. How does that happen? When is it that we decide enough is enough. No more fun for you!
I think I will change the rules. Play all the time.
That is what this year will be about! Playing and relating.
I want to be a better friend, daughter, sister this year. I want to know that the most important part of my life are the people I relate to. The people I love and the people I have a strong distaste for (my mom always told me not to use the word hate!) I am beginning to coagulate as a person. I love that word, but it is true, that is how I feel. I was a runny yolk, bits of me going every which way, not knowing what to stand for, what is important to me. But this is starting to change. I am putting myself (albeit slowly) into hot water and consquently I am hardening, solidifying. Understanding what I want to stand for and why.
It is a cool and interesting process for sure.
I like. I like.
Happy Birthday to me.
With love
Allison
76 Responses to “long lost friends of my blog!”
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eddiewulf Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 8:30 amHappy birthday to you, hope you have enjoyed your day, and hope you get closer to your friends, family and your fans here in your blog keep bloging and dont forget about us
Eddie Wulf
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eddiewulf Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 8:32 amNow you are a year older well actually a day every day but hope you had a great day and had eated a lot of delicious cake
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Rafael Ribeiro Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 9:28 amHi Allison, it was amazing what you wrote. I wish much happiness to you. If you need me you know how to find me.
Thank you.
=Dtwitter.com/rafaelrn
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superneil Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 9:45 amHey Allie!!
Who needs to grow up?! Define grown up? I am happily a 51 yr old KID!! LOL Silly is still cool & fun at 51!!
AND WHAT’S THIS CRAP ABOUT BEING “BEAUTIFUL”??!! I got some news for you, kiddo!! You ARE and always will be “beautiful” … to all of us!! AND I DARE ANYONE TO SAY OTHERWISE!! (there, gauntlet thrown down!!)
Please stay the way you are!! There is absolutely NOTHING wrong with how you are … beautiful!!
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Lily Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 9:45 amYour entry makes my heart smile, I wish you the best of life.
I’ve turned 35 in June and I feel like I’m becoming more my own person every day. There are still a few issues I’m struggling with but, being my own person, stepping out of my comfort zone and savor life is amazing. It feels good and empowering.
My family and friends mean the world to me. Most of my dearest friends live overseas. The distance is not always easy (even though there is email) but, my gratitude for these friendships gets the upper hand of sadness. I will make the best of it and be there for them in any way I can.I’ve committed myself to continue my journey with a smiling heart, work hard to overcome struggles, and do my best to make a difference and be a good person.
Again, it feels great.You can take pride in who you are and in what you do. You are a natural beauty on the outside and gorgeous on the inside.
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Kathy Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 10:55 amI know that it’s easy for us as your fans to see how wonderfully talented and beautiful you are, but you, like the majority of us, can be plagued by self-doubt.
I think you are taking the right course in choosing to be a positive, and vowing to lead a better life.
And I’m 37 years old, and I still don’t always feel that I have my life together.
Happy 27th year of life Allison and live it to the fullest!
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TTBadguy Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 11:24 amHappy birthday and I hope it’s everything you want it to be and more! Also, I hope that this year of life is a time of discovery and confidence for you.
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magic_coco Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 11:28 amHi, I completely understand what you mean…I’m 26 and I feel the same.
For what it worse, I guess the best is to be good with friends and family. The point : can count on people and that they can count on us too.
So my advice ? -> enjoy your friends, your family and don’t forget to be selfish sometimes too^^, be 25 in your head for the rest of your lifeI’m sure you’re an accomplushed woman
Happy Birhday
Wish you the best
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MeliMelzzzz Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 11:30 amHappy Birthday Allison!
Thank you for sharing your thoughts!
I think no one can ever be grown up… we’ll always be kids nomatter what… We all always ask more and more questions… just like 4-year-olds…
Well. Stay safe and keep on doing what you’re doing! You’re one of my role models!
Lots of love from Pellendorf/Austria, Meli Melzzzz ?
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jpedersen Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 11:38 amFirst off Happy Birthday Allison!
This is going to sound a little bit cheesy maybe but it’s true and Im just saying it because I want the best for you. By ourselves we will never get enough satisfaction with ourselves, we will always compare and see faults in ourselves. I found that since I started walking with Jesus I really saw things in myself I never would have seen If I where without Him. Really it has changed my life. I just hope you can find the Love I have found and things will be different!
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ashley20 Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 11:40 amHappy Birthday, Girlie!!
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Dream_Walker Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 11:54 amOMG, Welcome back, its been a long while, but Youre prolly just really busy so its understandable.
First of all Happy birthday again, i hope You had wonderful time
Okay second, i REALLY DONT wanna sound all cliche but, i feel i can relate – welcome to my world i guess. I feel like a kid that just doesnt know how to grow up and its kinda tempting to be all immature but also kinda makes u feel bad that u cant move on? Last years ive been through a lot and it all has changed someway or another i think. For most of the part i think ive managed to analyze myself more objectively, rather than just justify everything i did blindly. I guess the world really isnt what we think it will be as kids, and later we realise we cant make it what we want to, so only option remains… change yourself and become what You wish to see around You or blend with the “grey mass” and accept whats around You. Everything isnt really black and white and theres lotta out there thats hard to categorize. So i guess its all about Youre personal moral values.. when You cross them it comes down to are You willing to face consequences and admit Youre mistakes and learn from them. I do not know who i am really, but i do know who i wanna become, so i keep moving forward keeping it as my sight. Along the way theres bound to be obstacles and challenges but its all part of the journey, its part of who You will become? Ive made mistakes in past but i like to think ive accepted ‘em, maybe even learned something? Enough self-analyzing, maybe im flawed, maybe got severe self-esteem issues, maybe both, maybe not, or maybe im just hopeless romantic who thinks too much Life is as it is, we just gotta try to keep our best as we move on and use the time to given us to our best effort. Thats what i like about You Allison, as some1 commented in Youtube, You have most wonderful way of bringing the good in people out just by being who You are Have faith and keep sharing, we love’ya Good night and Good luck!DW…
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Cherokeeknight Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 12:01 pmVery well said Allison, and happy birthday. Enjoy your life; one never gets too old to play. Heck, I do it every day.
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Ornella Santilli Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 12:06 pmTHERE YOU ARE AGAIN!!! YEAHH!!!
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Steven Kirk Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 12:35 pmIt’s so nice to have you back where you belong.
More so than New Year’s Eve, I use my Birthday as the focal point of the year to take stock and reassess.
For me, there’s something stronger about “another year older” as opposed to just “another year over”
And the whole “Growing Up” thing is highly over-rated! Becoming mature is one thing, becoming “old” is another.
In fact, one of my favorite sayings is “We all have to get older, but nobody says you have to get old.”
Your attitude on life and people is spot on. You’ve become very wise in your “old age!”
Glad you had a great birthday!
Steve
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wolfman273 Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 12:37 pmHappy Birthday. I don’t want to sound like a creeper, but um hello…”waiting for the beauty?” Maybe you need glasses in your older age, cause you are very beautiful. JK. Hope you had a great day.
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Lynsey Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 12:46 pmHappy birthday, Allison! I think feeling “grown up” is one of those things that is always just around the corner – I certainly don’t feel I’m there yet! When I was a kid I thought that leaving home and going to college would make me grown up, then after college I thought I’d be grown up when I had a career. Last year I bought my first home, but even now I sometimes feel like I’m playing at being a grown up!
It’s good that you’re reflecting and learning who you are and who you want to be – I think that’s a journey you’re always on – who you are is always changing and growing.
Have a good year!
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Brittany Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 12:48 pmHappy Birthday!!!! Dear Allison, you have grown so much and I know this year will be the best one yet! You’re amazing. I don’t have words to describe of how proud I am of you. You’re incredible. Keep up the great work and keep being you, the one we love & adore!
Much love & support,
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Gordon Fenning Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 12:49 pmRemember, you only live once… Unless you believe in reincarnation of course… Anyway, have fun! =D.
Ps You are beautiful. What? what? yeah I said it.
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jenn Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 12:58 pmHappy Birthday!! I hope that you had a fabulous day!
I’m so glad that you’re back! And, I can completely relate to how you are feeling. I’m also in my late twenties, and some days I feel like I’m starting to come into my own and other days were I just feel like a lost child. I too had this image of myself as an adult, and felt that one day I would just know and-wham- I’d be grown up….but that moment hasn’t arrived yet. Honestly, I don’t think that I ever will, and I’ve come to see that as a good thing; because really if we don’t have any room to grow or learn life would get really boring, really fast.
I can’t wait to hear about your adventures this year! And keep writing because I love how you challenge not only yourself, but also all of us readers!
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adidaxryx Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 1:04 pmI’ve been having these thoughts recently, too. I turned 25 last month, and it was days after Michael Jackson died. I listened to “Man in the Mirror” on repeat.
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Jesse Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 1:18 pmHi Allison
Wow, I hope you had a great birthday and I hope while you denature yourself to a solid egg, I hope you become the women you truly want to be. You always have your friends and your family for support. I love your eggs I mean I love eggs nothing but protein haaaa. Allison so big Ummlualways
-jesse
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diana lizeth Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 1:32 pmAllison,
I know. It’s like amnesia, waking up one day and youre a new age, and youre thinking, what? You feel as though youre not that age and you can do anything like spill shit all over the kitchen and get yelled at because you fucked up. Now you spill and you’re like, Ill clean it up. But were all kids in a way. My aunt is a 47 year old baby who likes sleeping in underwear and eats a midnight snack everynight. That midnight snack is doritos and cola, with a snickers bar onthe side.
I am 18, and I always think… I should act older, because people will take me serious this way. But in reality Im cleaning the house, doing laundry, dressing up like a prosecutor, and my friends who are my age, are out hanging out at the park, the movies, or playing ………… shoot, I am glad that I am mature but, I have to get out more!!!! after all… who wants to play mommy when we can play baby? hahahaha………
I am not a mother yet, I hope to be after im 30 because I want to play and fuck up and have fun!!!!!!! “its my life, its now or never, and i anit gonna live forever… i just wanna life while im alive”
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!!!!
P.S ever considered being in a comedy, or a horror film? I would so go see your movie.
lol you getting chased by zombies or serial killer……..seriously. I want to see you in movies.. who doesn’t here? Smallville is almost over.. Ive seen it since 2001 and frankly I watch it cause your a damn good actress…
I have a story for you.. I wrote it…
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Robin Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 1:34 pmHappy belated Birthday Allison,
I hope you and everyone here has a fun, exciting and happy year ahead…
I’m 32 and still don’t feel “grown up” in having all the answers or being the complete article (whatever that is) …maybe I never will – but maybe that’s ok, maybe we are better off asking questions of ourselves, being full of contradiction, of letting ourselves just be human?
Keep having fun!
xx
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diana lizeth Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 1:36 pmA girl loses her friend at a drive by.. they were in sixth grade.. she is devestated.. and shes left with nothing.. ( this is a dream i had-you allison mack were in it)
Im no writer so I don’t know how ill tell this but, that girl is me. i really did lose my friend in sixth grade, but the rest is fiction. im suppose to be upset about my friend so i return to that death scene.. and my friends dad comes up to me and says shes dead, i dont wnat to see you here again.. and i found out that the man was working in the cia.. he was and he hired me. me a kid. so freshman year of highschool, i was asked a scary question.-so i was the first human to be cloned. and there were two of me, one which was practically dead, not a vegetable.. and so.. i met you right? and its crazy because you and i were good friends (in my dream) we always emailed eachother and you had a 3 year old son who was kidnapped by one of your spycho ex boyfriends… and ………. -
diana lizeth Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 1:42 pmand………. you knew i was working in the cia you asked me to work on your kids case, which i did, and you were always like, ” your the frickin cia and you cant find my son!?!?!” so.. i tried.. soon when you were on yahoo messanger i received an email by an agent who asked me to confess to my parents that i worked for teh cia, offered me money and to move to washington to start on a mission. when i told you, you said… you’ve done a lot for me i need to help you, and i was like, what? but you totally went there… you had contacts and this scientist, his name was christian lenyn, he transmitted your soul into a carbon copy of my body taht which one was dead, and so i didn’t have to tell my parents, nor move, you replaced me at school while i was in washington/…
you became scared but you hooked me up with this one cute guy, and you made my life better, you fixed up my room, and you changed my wardrobe.. but you had headaches …. so while you and i were still in contact you begged me to come back. you missed your family and friends. but you fooled ppl at school, yeah thats how good of an actress you were…..
so we switched back ….when you first did this was dec2, all the way through aprild 7… so it was quite some time.. and i came back to find everything changed but i liked it. i loved you like a mother so i needed to make sure you were safe at home, everything had to go back to normal…
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jbs46 Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 1:43 pmThis post really resonated with me, as I just celebrated my 30th birthday yesterday. It was a great day, but I was strangely introspective about it. I’ve always considered myself to be less “grown-up” than a lot of my friends, some of whom are years younger than me. It’s something that until yesterday had sort of gnawed at my self-image. Until yesterday.
I decided that if I do my best to love others and lift them whenever I can, if I live the best life that I possibly can, it doesn’t matter if I don’t come across as mature or grown up. I look forward to another 30 years of being a big kid!
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diana lizeth Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 1:47 pmand it did but then that boy you hooked me up with in february found out you were being me for a while so we almost broke up and he wanted to meet you so i gave him your email and he emailed you and you emailed him back saying you would get brain surgery to remove your memory so you wouldnt have to keep knowing my secret and everything that happened…
i was upset and everybody was, but it turned out that that doctor/scientist who was giving you brain surgery was the serial killer who kidnapped and killed your son.. so…………. you were fucked there.. you didnt know that….. and so he removed your memory but you didn’t know who i was…. this is what you said….
My Dear Diana,I am very sorry, you’re right, I do not remember you at all, in fact I don’t remember a lot. It’s not just you, I have an unexplained memory loss case that baffled doctors. I lost my memory not entirely though, but without reason, I was picked up in a street by a man and took me to the police station, from where I was taken to a neurological department of a Canadian hospital.
I did not remember how I got there on the street.. where I lived, who my friends were, It turned out, however, that I could speak German, English, and had very good knowledge of so many different things. I’m an actress, but I knew that which was very awkward that moment when the police asked who I was.
Doctors conducted a toxicological expertise of my brain. The analysis showed that the memory loss, was not connected with drug addiction or a cranial injury. I was found absolutely healthy. The Doctors concluded that I was suffering transitory global amnesia.
I think it’s a rather unique incident. People do not lose their memory all of a sudden, without a particular reason for it. I still don’t know why some of my memory was erased. It is not ruled out that I might have experienced a very serious stress. In addition, medics say that it is absolutely impossible to explain the reason why I do not remember the last 7 years about myself or my life at all.
It’s funny because one of the doctors ironically said, I might have been a guest to an
alien spaceship, where extraterrestrial creatures erased my memory before returning me back to earth.well i think thats it…/ anyway!!! it was a crazy dream!!! which is why i want you and i give your permission to if you want. make it a live picture film!!!! please! i swear it would be awesome!!!
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diana lizeth Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 1:51 pmyou can twist it all you want…
it just sounds right to me.. i want to make it a book, with fictional character names.. maybe im crazy but… it’s hilarious! and cool at the same time….. anyway… because of that dream, i will comment your blogs everyday. just not weekends because i really have a stiff dad… so… think about it..
my email lizeth.olivo@cia.com
its funny because ive been wanting to work for the cia since i was in 6th grade when my best friend gina died.. ive always wanted to meet you, your my favorite actress and i look up to you..
just think about it? your a film director now arent you? YOU CAN DO ANYTHING… ……….
Diana Lizeth Katherine Olivo
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diana lizeth Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 1:53 pmONE LAST THING,
theres more to the story, but i can only be detailed when im in no rush, i have to go. thanks for reading!!!
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IreneT Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 2:14 pmHey lady! it’s great to hear from you again!
Happy B-lated B-Day! I hope you had a great one!
I love your communication skills by the way! Your so eloquent. I love that & your transparancy. I missed you.
We celebrated my sons birthdays together yesterday (9yrs old & 16 yrs old). I can’t get over how they have grown!
Everything counts, every thing is valid, and relvent.
Do you have any regrets?
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MW Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 2:19 pmI can see already as a male I am out numbered here..lol. None the less I enjoy your work. And I wrote what you had to say. Its funny I have always felt that way in a certain sense. So many people see to always feel that you cant keep your funny laid back side and be serious to. Or for that matter be funny , and joking and be successful. I am 29 as of right now and for my age I always feel that I am still 18 or something. It might be a downfall of mine that I dont take things to serious, or myself for that matter. So you have fun, and joke around and enjoy yourself because as non original as it is you only go around once. So make the most of it in this go around. Your very blessed to have been put in the situation you are in a far as work. You have the ability to do things that most people can probably only wish they could do. So dont take that for granted, and make the most of it….p.s. HAPPY BELATED BDAY.
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Karsten Schramm Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 2:23 pmDear Ms. Mack,
although late, I also wish you a very happy 27th birthday.
And if I may add a peace of advice from the POV of an 31-year old (now imagine me stroking my long, white beard like in the old chinese kung fu movies *g*):
IMHO “Growing up” only means to take responsibilities for one’s own actions and stand by the decision one has made. Everything else is optional. One does not need to lose the youth in one’s heart to grow up. Even when one does seemingly childish things from time to time, it doesn’t mean one still has to “grow up”.
So, enjoy your life, do the things you want to do and everything else will align itself along your path.
Again, a very happy brithday to you.
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Lucyta Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 2:25 pmLucy: Sorry, I’m Late. Happy Birthday!!! I really don’t surf in internet often. I want to wish the best in your life, do what you want, reach what you want.
I also will be 27 in september, I was born in 1982 too! I see in my past , as same as you, and also think a lot of things. When I was a kid , I thought be an adult would be the great thing in life because you can do what you want (without mom and dad ) but now, I think to be and adult has a lot of responsabilities, to face dificulties in life, to take a way by your own, to learn by your experience….and also realize that all your whises when I was younger maybe cannot be true.
The life make us like this or we have to take this way to be?
People can live the life in diferent ways, ones may be incorrect, and other may be the corect and mature way. But, our dreams, our innocence..? are lost?I thinkg so many many times to be 9 years old again and be happy, easily happy. But, we grow up, we have to face the life and we also don’t have to leave our dreams behind, who knows our dreams will be true some day.
Lucy from Spain.
you have a good work with your blog, relly great!
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charly Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 2:28 pmhola allison te quiero desear el mejor feliz cumple y q bonito pensamiento y se muy feliz yo soy de mexico espero q algun dia me escribas bye
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Avitable Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 2:44 pmHappy birthday – I hope your blogging is more frequent. I enjoy your posts.
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Melissa Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 3:25 pmOMG you’re back on track!! That’s so awesome Allison. We all miss you, but we do understand you have a lot of work right now. I wish you the best everyday, you post-blog-today was great, I loved it!
Hope you had an incredible happy birthday, you deserve it girl!
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Smallvillekent Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 3:33 pmAllison I am glad you are back. Really missed you. We all have growing to do know matter what age you are that is life. I am alot older than you and still growing. We all think you are beautiful so you don’t have to worry about that. Also I left my pj’s on the bedroom floor the other day. Lets talk soon. See Ya! Peter
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AaronCab Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 3:38 pmHmm. No one who was truly happy ever said you should stop playing, or experiencing that childlike joy of life and wondering at the world around you. It’s just that you should smile with responsibility, now. But smile, nonetheless. In fact, make it a point to do at least one silly thing per day (dance around, sing out loud, tell a joke, lighten a mood). The world will be a better place for it. And as for doubting your beauty, well, sometimes it’s hard for us to believe in our own beauty because we’re always too close to our own flaws, but let me tell you this: Not one person out of the thousands of admirers you have on this planet finds you to be anything but beautiful. Though I do not have the honor of knowing you personally, from all I’ve observed of your inner self shining through, you’re thoroughly lovely. And on the outside, well, that isn’t really contested, now, is it? =) Oh, and I wanted you to know that I celbrated your life this week, too. Good kharma to you, and all that.
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lucaselian Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 3:46 pmHappy (:belated:) Birthday Allison!
I wish you a wonderful year!
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Electra Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 4:00 pmHi Allison,
Wow, you’re back with a fantastic new posting. That’s so much you. I love it. You know, while I was reading it I realised that several passages could be written by me. 27 – I don’t think it’s a bad age. How can an age be good or bad anyway? I mean, it doesn’t matter how old we are at all. It’s about the things we do or don’t do – our actions and attitude.
Having nasty thought is just fine. Believe me, we all have those every now and then… some of us possibly even occasionally. That’s human. And yes, Allison, you are only human too! You are a human with heart and courage. Those are characteristics I personally appreciate very much. Yet, the ugly truth is… whatever you wanted to do… your friend did it… I have to admit that if I were you I had those nasty thoughts too. Bad, bad friend!
The question is what are you looking to do now? Why did your friend do this anyway? Another question is: Did your friend act accidentally or intentionally? Anyway, if this friend is a real friend I would try to fix that, but if not… grrrrrrr!
The little girl looking into the mirror… with the eyes of a child. I guess this is the point. I suppose you look into the mirror as a woman now. Maybe you ought to try to look into the mirror and see yourself with the eyes of your childhood.
You know, I’m quite exhausted these days and when I looked into the mirror this morning I thought: “Oh my goodness, you’ve seen better days!” Still in the morning, but a few hours later, I crossed the street and passed by a bus stop. There was this strange woman sitting on a bench and when she saw me she greeted me with the exact wording: “Good morning, beauty!” …and she called this quite loud.“Good morning, beauty!” This reminded me of something and put a smile on my face. It’s not the way we look that makes us beautiful – it’s our heart and soul… those make even a fatally ill and dreadfully looking person appear most beauteous. A beautiful facade might be great for a while, but in time even the most beautiful facade won’t help if there’s no beautiful soul behind. The truth is, Allison, you are quite a pretty woman with a wonderful soul. Can’t you see it in the mirror? No? Then I fix that for you… Allison Mack, you are a beauty, too!
If you cannot find confidence by your own, then get it from others. Maybe it’ll help you to read the last sentence of the previous section again now. I hope you find some affirmation from your blog friends every now and then. That’s a good way to become confident, isn’t it?
Being a better daughter, sister, and friend…and here comes another rub in life. A lot, well, actually most, people expect too much of themselves. There are so many situations in life in which people forget that they’re only human, only human.
You’re quite a busy person, Allison, and no one expects of you to be perfect nor should you. I’m sure you are a wonderful daughter, sister and friend. Be sure you do your best and give all you can to and for your loved ones. That’s all. The important thing is to take one’s time for those real important things in life. Maybe it’ll be enough just to spend some more time with your loved ones… except your bad, bad friend of course.…and hate… Well, what is it? The same is love if we are careful. There are strong and intense feelings behind love and hate. The question is: Do you really feel hate? Or is it just a dislike. There are some people I thought I would hate for a while, but the truth is I feel nothing for them. Hence, I cannot hate them for I cannot hate someone or something I actually don’t care about. I was not even angry with them, but I was angry about what they did to me and in time this anger turned to carelessness as well. However, if you really feel hate, then I think you should use that word even if your mom doesn’t want you to. Bad advice? No. For sure, your mother told you not to use the word hate, but did she also tell you not to express your feeling, damping or even to deny those? I bet not. Sure, sometimes it’s better to use some other resp. nicer phrase, but sometimes a clear expression is necessary and inevitable.
Finding to oneself… that’s a good one, isn’t it? I think it’s sort of a process of realisation of one’s person. I love it. So, what does it mean to be grown up? … Don’t ask me, I don’t know. I mean, how should I know, I see people of every age playing like they always did and will always do. Yet, a lot of adults think they have to deny it. I think we should never reach the point we lose our childish part. So, what are you waiting for… take your inner child for a walk!
It’s around midnight by now…. so Good Night, beautiful one.
Love,
ElectraPS
Happy Birthday to me …and once more… Happy Birthday to you, dear human being Allison Mack. -
Jade Ruby Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 4:48 pmIt most certainly does feel good to read your words again Allison. I’m glad that you’ve shared with us those reflections of life after another revolution around the sun. You are so beautiful in so many aspects you leave me breathless, and I suppose others as well.
Maybe instead of play. . . how about dancing your way through this year and beyond. You could choreograph your entire circle of influence in a fabulous way as you become this person that you’re molding yourself to be. Always have fun, keep that twinkle in your eyes that defies the years.
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Amanda N. Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 4:57 pmIt’s nice to hear from you again Allison.I’m glad you had a great Birthday.I never like reaching another year cause I feel like not much has happened and I’m just older for no reason.That’s not the case,but I always feel like that.You have these amazing aspirations,I too want to be a better daughter and sister,also an overall better person.
It’s kinda funny how you were jealous about your friend and had nasty thoughts.It’s quite okay,but it’s cool how you admitted it without really having too.You just always seem like this happy cheerful person.And it’s really stupid of me to think like that.But it’s always cool to see the people I admire and look up to have real feelings such as these,or should I rather say expressing them openly.And as you said you are human,so go ahead and mess up a little.
Allison for a woman in her late 20’s you have a good head on your shoulders,also a kind heart.And you know what you want out of life,I feel fortunate to be included on this process just by you sharing it all with us.
Also don’t worry about not feeling grown up.I’m 16 and feel dumb as hell in almost every situation I encounter.My parents and sisters always say I act like this small child who will most likely never grow up.I am to childish,that is something I need to work on.But I have this feeling I will someday be 40 and still never truly be a grown up.
This was a really well written post,thanks for sharing.I wish you the best in accomplishing all your goals.
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william Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 6:09 pmALLISON!!! your back! thats great. hey I think that what it means to be grown up is defined incorrectly alot. just dont over stress the idea although it is important. very cool that your “coming together” cant what to see what occurs in the days to come! have a great year!
btw- I WILL meet you some day but until then this will do….darn,.. lol
takes for always being inspiring
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Ritinha Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 6:58 pmThanks for posting. was wonderful what you wrote. Happy Birthday
xoxo
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Beth Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 7:10 pmWelcome back Allison!
Hope you had a wonderful birthday. I have to say I love the idea of making the next twelve months all about playtime. We don’t hear that often enough. And we all make mistakes; that’s what makes us interesting. Life would be so mundane without learning and growing.
Glad you’re back! Keep posting!
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Bouroux Says:
August 3rd, 2009 at 10:53 pmHi Allison, I am glad you are back.
You are lucky to have each year two new beginnings which are You are lucky to have each year two new beginnings which are distinct because they are separated by 7 months. Me, I have only a beginning because I was born december 30th. Make a small balance twice a year would be a good idea if only for appreciate the finer things in life.You’re right to change the rules for a better life. Live your life joyfully is the best way to feel well and not feeling survive.
I am 51 and I like to think with my heart witch is very young.
I realy love your values about family and freindship. The genuine love of these people we would stay with both feet on earth and good to keep our balance.Good evening.
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jimbaird Says:
August 4th, 2009 at 12:21 amAnother year gone,
Sing happy birthday to me,
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PaulF Says:
August 4th, 2009 at 6:38 amGreat post. Thoughtful, eloquent… great post!
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Raziellus Says:
August 4th, 2009 at 6:38 amHappy Birthday to you!
Coagulation hmmmm? That’s an interesting way to put it; hot water hard-boiling an egg. You’re certainly right about challenges making you stronger. They’re good for you… and, necessary, that way.
There are no rules for life. Find, invent, follow, whatever you can that’ll help you be complete and content. It’s your life to live after all. You always seem to be very much alive, I find it amazing and wonderful. Keep it up!
~Andy
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Aziza Says:
August 4th, 2009 at 10:13 amHey Allison, Happy belated birthday! I admire you for being secure within yourself even if it’s admitting that you’re not perfect. No one is really. I think the sooner we admit our faults, the less stressed out life is. When I was a kid I used to think adults had it all under control. Not. That when I grew up I would have everything planned out. I’m 23 and I’m still stumped. But it’s okay. I think the best thing for us to do is strive to make each year better than the last. So have fun the rest of the year!
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adrenaline Says:
August 4th, 2009 at 11:31 amwhat’s funny is being “grown up” isn’t attained by a certain age. People do however have the ability to mature and grow (and need to), but its always good to still take time to have fun and appreciate life.
Forget “growing up” and continue to “grow.”
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Paja Says:
August 4th, 2009 at 11:37 amHi Allison. Happy Birthday:)))
I wish you happiness and lots of LOVE because you really merit it for what you are and how you feel. Please stay such woman who you are – great person.
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Solti Says:
August 4th, 2009 at 12:23 pmHi Allison & Allison’s fan all over the world
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I think, the ”growing up” process is a very complex, invisible, unnoticed circumstance in our life. We notice only so much of it, that our thinking is maturer and our real values, the human appreciate in value, in us contacts, than family, friends and those who really count… this will the most important… who nourish with love, that let us be allowed to be open again onto the new one, the enduring one. Beautiful process, no? And more wonderful to experience. I think… Happy ‘B’day to you
!Lots of love:
Solti
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Ramon Silva Says:
August 4th, 2009 at 2:59 pmHappy you’re back, we missed you.
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Ruthie Says:
August 4th, 2009 at 9:07 pmThanks for sharing your thoughts and inspiring so many, Allison. I’m glad to be a friend of your blog
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mabel Says:
August 4th, 2009 at 9:11 pmhi allison!!! i am a 45 years old woman and…i am still growing up and keeping every experience for the next step. always. horizons never ends.
happy birthday woman!!!mabel, from argentine.
(sorry for my english)
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mabel Says:
August 4th, 2009 at 9:13 pmhi allison!!! i am a 45 years old woman and…i am still growing up and keeping every experience for the next step. always.
happy birthday woman!!!mabel, from argentine.
(sorry for my english)
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Jenny_1982 Says:
August 5th, 2009 at 7:51 amHey Allison,hope you had a nice birthday.
Glad your back. I’m the same age as you and I can relate to a few things. Especially the changing the rules and Play all the time.
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Karen Says:
August 5th, 2009 at 9:31 amYour words inspire me, they’re so very close to my own thoughts. Happy b-day!
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Tee Says:
August 5th, 2009 at 10:27 amThis sounds like me when i was in my early 20’s..haha..
(It is so funny, I really thought I would hit a certain age and be “grown up”.)BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
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Smallvillekent Says:
August 5th, 2009 at 2:54 pmHappy Birthday Allison! I hope you enjoyed your B-Day!! Play alittle today.
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Ana Flávia Says:
August 5th, 2009 at 8:16 pmHappy belated Birthday, Ms. Allison Mack!
Just found out your birthday is on the same day as my dad’s, my uncle’s (dad’s twin), and my cousin’s (son of dad’s twin), so there’s no way I’ll ever forget it! hahaHope you had (and keep having) lots of fun! And hey, you shouldn’t worry, because you got the beauty, all right! You are beautiful both in your appearance and in your soul. And also, so far, in your 27 years of age, you’ve been no less than awesome, amazing, incredible and fantastic!
Bye bye!
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ocelot Says:
August 7th, 2009 at 6:05 amhappy birthday allison
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Susana Says:
August 9th, 2009 at 12:10 pmawww how we missed you so
!!!!!! Welcome back Allison & also Happy Belated Birthday.
I love every single time you write it makes me wish I knew how to write as well as you seriously you should conisder writing for a book or something you are really good.
Well can’t wait till you amaze us with more of your amazing blogs
Take Care,
Susana
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Ben Says:
August 9th, 2009 at 8:51 pmHappy Birthday Ms.Mack!!!!!!!! oh yeah my birthday is only a day before yours i really dont care that you didnt pick my questions. But wow ur finally on yeah!!!!!!!
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Fox79 Says:
August 12th, 2009 at 12:00 pmThis is so true! I just turned 30 I have 3 kids and been married for 8 1/2 yrs and I still don’t feel like a grown up!
Happy Birthday!! I just waned you to know I am a big fan of yours my husband and I have watched every season together and were worried for your character because we love er so much ad were happy to see her become the watch tower! Keep up the good work.
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gigi_daisy Says:
August 15th, 2009 at 8:46 pmI wish you only the very best. Many blessings to you on your “growing up” journey.
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musmicl Says:
August 15th, 2009 at 9:59 pmGod! I really wish that I could meet you. I love the way you think! You have this innocence about you and write really touching things. Thanks for being you!
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Jacks Says:
August 15th, 2009 at 11:31 pmI’m not the type of person who usually shares there life with complete strangers, but today is my birthday and I wanted to let someone know.
I don’t have a family or friends to confide in, what I have in life are my music and a journal. I’m not trying to sound like a sob story its just I believe that birthdays are a big deal and I wanted someone in the universe to know that I made it to twenty two.
If my parents were alive we would be laughing and having a party, things would be different, I would be different.
But anyway hello and happy birthday to the two of us.
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Jade Ruby Says:
August 17th, 2009 at 2:51 pmI swear, Allison truly has a way of touching us deep within our hearts. Thanks so much Allison.
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doomsfour Says:
August 25th, 2009 at 12:51 amBelated Happy Birthday Allison
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Rebecca Says:
August 25th, 2009 at 2:31 pmI’m new and therefore late to reply. First, do I detect a delicious reference to Anne of Green Gables at the beginning of this blog? If so, you’ve just made my day a bit happier.
Welcome to the new year, and know you’re not alone in wondering how mid-to-late 20s could be adult. Did our grandmothers feel all grown up at our age? Did they have it all “together,” feel confident and beautiful and strong all the time? If so, I want to know how they pulled it off! For now, let’s agree to tell ourselves it’s okay to play and to take our time learning and changing. Maybe we’ll be the better for it when we find ourselves honestly, fully “adult.” -
ziggy_reaper Says:
August 29th, 2009 at 11:58 pmYour a different person every day. You may wake up tomorrow and feel grown up and you may wake up the next and feel like your 5. Happens to me all the time.
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robsonrs Says:
August 31st, 2009 at 3:22 pmhappy birthday allison!!!
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DaveMack Says:
January 14th, 2010 at 11:58 amAllison I love you, actresses such did not find all visited during your work is wonderful, especially in Smallville … And by the way, you are very beautiful!
kisses.
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