maintenance
You know what is so funny? I struggle so much to maintain anything in my life. I buy a plant, water and cultivate it for a few weeks and then it dies. I buy a sweater, wear it everyday for a month or two and then, it pills, gets dirty, and done.
It’s like I’m looking for the fresh, easy feeling and once it is over, instead of putting in the effort to build and maintain it–go really deep with it, I jump out and move on.
So consequently, I feel a strong sense of emptiness in my life. Since I began to see this in myself, I have made a pledge to build more depth in myself and in my life; to stick with things and build my ability to maintain and grow depth… just the next step in my staircase of growth!
Yay! Evolution!
xo
a
Tags: consistency, maintenance, reliability
when we are honest…
I have been having the coolest experience with respect to honesty. Everything is so much better when you take out the bullshit. Things actually surface and you can see yourself, your true self, for what and where you are.
I think I am only now beginning to understand the joy in self-empowerment. The intense value in owning your own shit, and then making the necessary choices and steps in overcoming whatever struggle you are having in the moment.
It is incredible how quickly we can grow and evolve when we remove all our lies (including pride and ego) and actually put effort into building an honest sense of ourselves vs. clinging so tightly to the masks we wear that we can’t even see through the peep holes.
Wow, the result of honesty? Deeper and better everything. Who would have thought?
xo
a
Tags: ego, honesty, pride, self-empowerment
