Humanity, Compassion, Communication
Hey all!
I recently received some feedback from a few of my fans regarding the way everything went down at the A Cappella Innovations weekend in Albany.
I want to start off by offering my most sincere apologies for any confusion in how the weekend went off and was handled. Believe it or not, I still feel very new at this whole “celebrity” thing and have been trying really hard to figure out a way to stay as open as I can with my fans, while still maintaining my safety and privacy in some way.
That is actually a big part of how this site was born in the first place. Humanity and compassion are two of the most important things in my life and I always want to make sure that I represent that in everything I do.
That being said, I am still new at this, and being a public figure is a bit more dangerous than I expected. Consequently going to a public event needs to be approached in a specific way; a way that is totally foreign to me.
The weekend felt like a bit of a whirlwind, considering I arrived on the red eye and went straight to the festival. There was no real time to sleep and a few of the college students were a bit more aggressive than I was prepared to experience. It was because of these reasons that I was a little caught off-guard, and not really representing myself the way that I would have liked in the best of situations. I chose, out of fear and innocence, to hang backstage and keep myself a little more removed than I would have liked to have been.
I feel as those the effect of this may have been some hurt feelings, mis-communications, and disappointments. I would like to be the first to say I am sorry for any of those three things and also to request your patience in my attempt to figure out a humane and kind approach to this whole “famous” life style.
Thanks again for being so supportive and understanding.
Ciao
Xo
Allison
Branching Out
by Bruce Jenner
I find this quote so incredibly inspiring! I realized that I have only ever really done what feels comfortable in my life. I have never put myself in a position where I’m doing something that I have never done before. I have done this knowingly because the idea of looking like I don’t know what I am doing scares the heck out of me. After realizing this, I feel that limiting myself is ridiculous!
I am just shooting myself in the foot because… how can I ever grow if I never challenge myself. How can I ever know the depths of me if I spend my whole life skimming the surface and doing what is comfortable. So, I have decided to branch out. I will be directing episode 20 of Smallville this year, and I am so intimidated! It’s silly. I know that I have eight months to prep and that I have the most amazing crew of people around me that will do everything in their power to help me make something awesome, but getting past that ego that drives me has been a huge challenge. Ignoring the voice inside my head that is screaming “You have no clue how to do this!” has definitely been a challenge.
As I start to do more and more work on building this skill in myself, the voice is starting to soften and I am actually really enjoying the process. I liked this quote so much because it talks about “abolishing you fears” and “raising your commitment to the point of no return!” There is something so empowering about that phrase! So I am raising my “commitment level to the point of no return”!
I have now announced it to all you lovelies and I can’t go back on my word. It’s that silly pride thing that is actually helpful in this situation 
I am taking on something so foreign but I have made a strong decision to enjoy the learning process! Who knows, maybe I will become a fabulous director and just have two careers! Woah… let’s not get ahead of ourselves. Thanks for all the support you provide! I love hearing from you every week. You have no idea how much joy I get out of reading your thoughts on this website!
Ciao to all
Allison
ps… Oh yeah! And check out Miss Tabby’s site, allisonmackonline.com. She is doing some really awesome stuff for my birthday! I am collecting funds for a foundation that I am starting and any support is so so so appreciated!
Tags: Birthday, Bruce Jenner, Challenge, Directing, Fans, Fear, Foundation, Smallville
